As usual there're always songs conveying what you are going through right now in life.

Here's an assorted list I picked out:

1.Bitter Sweet Symphony - Verve
2.Free Falling - Tom Petty and the heart breakers
3.Fix you - Coldplay
4.Everybody Hurts - REM
5.Stop crying your heart out - Oasis

Things are as crazy as you want them to be. Last week I was talking about how to remain happy, this week I've had one of the busiest rides ever, working under pressure, figuring out things, going to places, heck, it seemed fun to me. When the mind's occupied by thousand crazy things life seems to pass by easily and quite quickly too. Ideal mind's a miserable place.

learned a new thing about myself. Later on I'd definitely be a workaholic, it just seems that I funtion best and enjoy the most when I am most busy. If I've things to do and if it keeps me occupied without overwhelming me, I'd do best.

In contrast, having a day off with nothing to do really takes out the miserable in me. I think through a lot gibbersih, fill my mind with worthless doubts and think as if am the only one sitting idle when the whole world's doing something or the other.

Having something to do, keeping my mind busy does best, am happy, I feel like my time's worth few things and that guilty feeling of wasting time goes away.

So, on being happy:

#Keep yourself Busy. There are a million things to be done. Stop whining.

Happiness is a choice.

Someone once said to me that I'd to start accepting people for who they are and stop wanting them to be the way I'd want them to be.

#1. Accept people for who they are.

And it ringed so true that I'm still stunned. I'd always wanted people to act a certain way, respond in a certain way and be a certain personality as imagined by me. What she made me realise was people aren't the people who you imagine them to be.

#2. Accept everybody around you.

When in a setting with a number of people around, few whom you love to spend some time with and the others you don't care about. I'd always hated the 'others', and it was due to them that I'd even leave the company of people I'd like just because I couldn't stand the people whom I didn't want. Another big mistake. She made me realise this when she acted so well with everyone around her. She was a great company and she taught me that being stubborn really just made me unhappy. Others didn't even have a clue what it all was about.

#3. Don't Imagine stuff and act to it, unless proven otherwise.

She'd said something and you think it over so many times that in the end it becomes a completely different story. And thinking that you'd either stay grumpy all by yourself or show unjustifiable anger. All she sees is you're always angry without any reason.

#4. Be Okay with your situation.

A lot has to do with over-expectations. What you are through presently is what is happening, getting sad over what should've happened or should be happening is pointless.

#5. Happiness is a choice.

Whatever action you take or however you feel is a choice. Being happy is one of the choices. Whatever shit maybe happening I prefer to remain happy is the mantra.

As we grow up we always tend to rethink about our position. We tend to reconsider who we are and actually learn how we are.

One of the most intriguing things I'd learned a few days ago was how less we knew ourselves. We know how we are going to react to something but we tend to overlook why we do so. The process of actually having a reason behind your behaviours really intrigued me.

"There's something in your mind, I know it. I can feel it. Even you know it, but why are you going into the other track? I know you know the answer and I know that you will never say it." --She said.

Knowing your pattern of thoughts and reactions before hand could really explain my erratic behaviours and she said she knew me well enough to know what was in my mind. She even felt what I'd been desperately trying to figure out.

How can it be, some other person actually knows you better than you, yourself.

Theres this feeling of discomfort. I'd miss her always, she'd always be in my thoughts, yet I didn't know what it was. I'd never been so confused and I knew I could/would never answer her question, just as she'd said I'd do.

But how, even I didn't know the answer.

I'd never call it love or infatuation. This time it was something else. I'd not miss her by her thoughts but I'd miss her company, all the talkings, cute expressions, small fights, constant bickerings and by the majority of small frivolous things associated with her. Songs,phrases,that moment captured inside my head,references to her, everything.

What is it?

And the Biggest of all is the complexity of it all. If she'd only been someone else than who she's now, things would've been something else afterall.

Or maybe I am wrong and all of this is just a moment that'd eventually pass by. Many changes are taking place maybe all I'd want is someone by my side who I can retreat to.

But Life's never easy, is it?